shy/syaq
14-11
Ngee Ann Poly/ Early Childhood Ed
granizo-syaque@hotmail.com

It just HAS to happen now. I'm like so tempted to call Sally up but it's freakin 3:19 in the morning. Man, I hafta stop being a wussy lil girl and run to him whenever sth hits me in the face. Ergh.


YOU are obviously ABSURD to be feeling that way.

Taufik Batisah's like singing on APM now. I'm not like CRAZY CRAZY over him but whenever i see him perform, subconsciously, Sally's at the back of my mind. I think they have that similar charm, y'know. When i saw Sally dancing hip hop and freestyling his way to the beat of the music, it totally made me swoon. HAHAHA. Crap. During his family chalet not long ago, i remembered him camwhoring with his cousin and she said, "Eh! You look like Taufik Batisah la!" And i swear i laughed my ass off there and then. HAHA. But now, it looks like... Heh. Okla okla, enough. I don't mean to y'know compliment and say good things bout him. I just think sometimes he needs reassurance coz Sally isn't the 'high self-esteem' kinda person. So yeah. I'm just doing him a favour but i think it's a bit too much but oh well. HAHA, just bear with it ok.

(This is so far my most favourite picture of Sally. :))

I'm so sorry guys. I've been so caught up with sch. Thus, i havent been updating. To sum it all up, everyth's going GREAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! :D Yeah, talking abt school, I got Street Soccer for my S&W module. Hysteria sia. And to top it all off, i'm the captain for the BLUE team. The best set of players i could ever ask for. (: And and, talking about soccer, i just came back from training with the 'MUSTANGS' at OE field. It was just to get me warmed up for S&W on tuesday. Then suddenly, they made me their publicity manager. Cool shit or what sia! HAHA. So now, i hafta like decide the jersey colour and make ammendments to the logo drawn by Hafiz. Whoho.

OHHHHHHHH, i took Volleyball as my CCA. I suck big time la coz they'r all so pro. But it's okay. I'll slowly make my way up. Lol!

I think that's all for now?

P/S: Manchester United fans, HEADS UP. EPL is OURS. Don't fret. (:

Shaik asked me what i wanna be in the future a few days back.

Shyanne. says:
I wna be a child psychologist or a psychologist dealing with kids with special needs. Then maybe open up a sch in the states coz right now, the special ones are bein put into the same classes as the normal ones so they get ostracized and stuffs. And i wna abolish all that and give them proper learning and care.

Ambitious aint it?


People has been asking, "Why go into special ed?", "Why not just a normal teacher?", "You won't get a very good pay you know". I did some indepth thinking just now. My career's gonna mean everyth to me in the long run and if i were to indulge in a field that i'm not particularly fond of although it's gna bring in the big bucks, i won't be a happy person. Dealing with these kids aint gna be a path strewn with roses but i know, at the end of every day, i'll be satisfied with myself, i'll be looking forward to the next day coz i know i'll be welcomed by warm smiles and maybe even a couple of hugs. And that's all i need and my mind's set on this.


The only reason i put Psychology and Community Services as my first choice was so i could gain experience working with the special ones and learning more abt their behavioral system and reflexes. However, i'm pretty alright being put into Early Childhood Education. After all, i can always fall back on the weekly attachments with the lovely ones to keep me sane from week to week. :D I'm not gna end up as a kindergarten teacher as Chicken Little puts it. I'm gna be more than just that. I'm gna go out into the big world and lend a helping hand to all those special ones. I want them to live life to the fullest just like normal children, able to play, able to have fun, able to do everyth they want. I wanna educate them and prove to this SUPERFICIAL world that they can be great people as well. Little do you know that they might just be spokesmen or congressmen. They are as capable as us, the normal ones, just that they are born with deficiencies by God's will. Even so, these angels have an extra sth to make up for their 'losses'. They have a heart of gold. Sth that most humans do not have.


Have you ever seen for example a downsyndrome child being shunned away by the public? It's a common sight. Have you ever tried being in their shoes, with people staring, glaring at you that even when you close your eyes, the stares are almost tangible, piercing through your skin right up to your bones? Has it ever came across your mind that these angels are born like that not by choice but fate? Have you ever thought abt how inhuman you were to shift seats in a bus coz you feel uneasy sitting next to a special child? Or maybe when you feel the discomfort being around them and decide to stay like ten metres away coz you think that their disabilities might inflict on you or rather they might pounce on you anytime soon? Call yourself a human? C'mon, for all i know, these special ones have more self-value. They're able to accept themselves for who they are and make do with it. Not like some hypocrites who live in self-denial thinking that in their so called "high-class" world, such people are disgraceful and thus, they irk at the sight of them. When in reality, these special ones are beautiful in every way. You can see it in their smiles. They're so pure, so sincere, so innocent. These God-sent angels are not here to be laughed at, insulted and criticized. They just need the extra care, extra love and if the society doesn't see their needs, who will?

I've always adored my aunt. Her strength, her courage has surpassed comprehension. It has never dawned on her to give up on Myra who has Autism since she was born. All these years, she remained strong, to overcome challenge after challenge, ordeal after ordeal. It was tough seeing her go through all that but i would say, it was all worthwhile. Myra's sucha beautiful girl right now. She's awesome. Words can never do her justice. Myra sings, dances, memorizes lines from movies and barney songs. She's probably doing better than normal kids. And honestly, her smile and laughter brings joy to the family. To see my aunt surviving all that, it has somehow inspire me to be the person i am today.

(This is a picture of Haiqal & Myra.)

One of her classic moments: (Lu lu skip to my lu plays on tv)

Myra: Lu lu susu mak lu. Lu lu susu mak lu. *laughs out loud* (Lu lu your mother's milk. Lu lu your mother's milk.) She's superbly adorable.

I've learnt not to take things for granted. I've learnt to make do with what i have and improve. I've learnt to accept people for who they are and not judge them for who they'r not. I've learnt to appreciate more and be less demanding. And all that have somehow made me a happy and better person. Alhamdullillah.


I know it's gna be hard and tedious and taxing and time-consuming but i'm all up for it. I wanna make the world realise what 'they' are capable of. I want to give them chances to start a new and inculcate self-confidence in themselves so that they wouldnt be afraid to face the world. I wanna get rid of the discrimination as much as possible coz no one has the right to be discriminated. These kids have been cooped up for years and it's time someone bring them out to see what the world has in store for them. And that someone will be me.

It's not all about the about the money that rolls in, it's all abt the passion and the satisfaction you gain from it.

(I'm sorry that it's so lengthy! And Sally, i love you to bits for staying up with me til after one am just to accompany me although you hafta wake up at five tmrw. =] )

HOMOSAPIENS, i'm back from HMS camp. (-: I seriously think i'm a lucky charm or sth. HAHA. In Millenia, Barney won the best clan. In Ngee Ann, Sigma won the best award and now in HMS, Agape won the most outstanding house. I am proven to be EPIC. :D

But seriously, my 3D2N escapade would have been meaningless without my AGAPE AI-ren. Basically, this year's theme is Greek. Agape means Unconditional Love in greek i suppose. Hahaha. How apt. So the house is divided into three subgroups - AI, LOVE & CINTA. Know what, i'll just update when i get the pictures ok coz i hafta go stargazing alr!

xoxo.

Guy: What's wrong?
Silence.
Guy: Is it your dad?
Girl: No.
Guy: Oh.
Girl: Dya ever think about the future?
Silence.
Girl: What dya see?
Guy: What do you see?
Girl: I'm serious.
Guy: (Breathes in) You.
Silence.
Guy: I see you.

- What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts.

SHITZ OBIEWANCANOBIE. Ten more days to the seventeenth. Einn's 19th birthday cum 2nd year with Sally. I alr know what to get for Einn but idk what i wanna do for Sally. I still rmb him bringing me to Labrador Park to show me all the war statues and tanks. So this time, let's hit Discovery Centre for a change can or maybe The Cage for a one-to-one match? Haha. After all, it's not the gift that makes it special, it's the company. HAHAHAHA, corny as hell. Ahh, i'll think of sth.

Anyway, i just found out that one of my NP mates thought i was an Indian. Baikk bhaiyya. Sally, i have your race. HAHA. Do i really look like i'm an Indian? Give me an Indian name please! (-:

And oh, highlight of the day.
Aryan pulled out my space bar from my NEW Acer laptop. It's not even two weeks old. The best part is, he still can laugh at me. Hahaha. Luckily, being the Champion i am(Aha, sally!), i fixed it.

I just told Shah, Mr 'Isn't madness the loftiest intelligence', that he'll get his very own fair share of pretty girls during the TP orientation camp. Greattt. Ok, i gtg and err do sth. Adios baby!

There'r so much things i hafta/wanna blog abt so keep visiting yea coz i'll be doin it in a 'man man lai' manner hor. (-:

I made a pact with haikal to promote him on my blog so i shall be a woman of my words and do it now. Cheh~ HAHA. Before anyth, this is Hkal. Remember that face ok. HAHA.

I was danggggg high yesternight while waitin for mass convo after returnin from Ryan's chalet. And haikal was all emo and downtrodden and dejected and submissive. HAHA. Tell me, which mofo would put "and you do your best to show me love, but you don't know what love is." on his MSN nickname and claim that's he's not emo. HAHA. And he THINKS that i can never get his blatant/obvious as hell sarcasm. JC BOY WHATTTTT. Lol. A contradiction to that, read below.

5/4/2008
12:04:01 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAA
5/4/2008
12:04:03 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HOLY MACADEMIA COOKIES.
5/4/2008
12:04:07 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
seriosuly.
5/4/2008
12:04:11 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
poly = sex.
5/4/2008
12:04:12 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
LITERALLY.
5/4/2008
12:04:25 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
OMG SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THE POLY ROUTE OMG I WOULD HAVE LOST MY VIRGINITY BY NOW!!!!!

The term 'JC-Boy' doesn't suit the name Haikal at all. This is only one-twelfh of the whole convo, swear.

5/4/2008
12:12:04 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:12:14 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
so you're in what course now?
5/4/2008
12:12:19 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
the childhood eh?
5/4/2008
12:12:29 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAH
5/4/2008
12:12:35 AM
Trirarien.
dealin with kids like you
5/4/2008
12:12:40 AM
Trirarien.
downsyndrome and etc
5/4/2008
12:12:44 AM
Trirarien.
still finding a cure though
5/4/2008
12:12:45 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:12:59 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:13:00 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
DUDE.
5/4/2008
12:13:02 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
if i were you
5/4/2008
12:13:18 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
i would fuck that course up and just severe the heads of those kids and auction them on ebay.
5/4/2008
12:13:23 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAHAHAHHA
5/4/2008
12:13:36 AM
Trirarien.
with you bein the first one to be auctioned ryte?
5/4/2008
12:13:37 AM
Trirarien.
HAHHA
5/4/2008
12:13:41 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:13:53 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
I MAY have downsyndrome, but I AM ABLE to take care of myself.
5/4/2008
12:13:54 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:14:04 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAHAHAHAH
5/4/2008
12:14:08 AM
Trirarien.
your head!
5/4/2008
12:14:24 AM
Trirarien.
you alr said you'll lose your virginity if you took the poly route
5/4/2008
12:14:27 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAH
5/4/2008
12:14:32 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:14:40 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
that doesnt account for my downsyndrome.
5/4/2008
12:14:51 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
what accounts for that is when i stick my head into a girl's pussy.
5/4/2008
12:14:53 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:14:54 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
OKAY
5/4/2008
12:14:56 AM
SICK NUFFF.
5/4/2008
12:14:59 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
EEWWWW;.
5/4/2008
12:15:01 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
WHAT SIA YOU
5/4/2008
12:15:02 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
WHAT SUA
5/4/2008
12:15:03 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHHA

Get my drift, people? HAHA, but we were just crapping ard. I mean, really no offence to anyone, swear. Then somewhere during the convo, he used the word 'imba'. My reaction to it was like 'IMBABO'. I was high on whip cream and this is the aftermath.

5/4/2008
12:17:20 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
i think there's a need to create new words.
5/4/2008
12:17:23 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAHAHHA
5/4/2008
12:17:37 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
IMBABO = WHEN BEING PERFECT GETS OUT OF CONTROL.
5/4/2008
12:18:37 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAHAH
5/4/2008
12:18:43 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:18:54 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
imbachu is when you think you're all too cute to be true.
5/4/2008
12:19:51 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:19:55 AM
Trirarien.
and then there is the one killer one.
5/4/2008
12:20:00 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
imbaex.

Try pronoucing that. Sounds damn cool. HAHA.

5/4/2008
12:20:37 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
imbaex is when someone thinks he's too sexy for the world and when he or she thinks that they can offer best pleasure in world.
5/4/2008
12:20:52 AM
Trirarien.
HAHAHAHAHAH
5/4/2008
12:21:05 AM
Trirarien.
im imbabo. you're imbachu and together we're imbaex
5/4/2008
12:21:07 AM
Trirarien.
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
5/4/2008
12:21:11 AM
Trirarien.
fucking good tagline
5/4/2008
12:21:12 AM
Trirarien.
HAHHAHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:21:30 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
5/4/2008
12:21:34 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
BLOG BLOG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
5/4/2008
12:22:07 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
man, this is shit funny stuffsx.
5/4/2008
12:23:11 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHHA
5/4/2008
12:23:12 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
KNSHSHADJKGDHJGDAHJGASHFD
5/4/2008
12:23:13 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

Mengucap Haikal. Dear God, bless my friend. HAHAHA. Just try to imagine our whole convo. After that, we went all sentimental. Talking abt how 'cbkns' we miss teekay. And we actually oath to meet at Simpang Bedok every Saturday night with the usual kakis. Saturday Night Fever or so. HAHAHAH. We even have our very own secret weapon and her hot hot sex minahs. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Sick.

The thg that got to me the most was when he wanted to sign off.

5/4/2008
12:47:58 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
okay man im off to sleep
5/4/2008
12:47:58 AM
i think we have an emergency, i think we have an emergency.
PAPER PICIT. <--------------------- WTF? Irritating twit.

"Paper picit" which if bein translated directly to English means, "Anyth just press". Doesn't work the English way. It's sth usually said by typical malay guys or MATS. Why can't they just phrase it in a better way, "If there's anyth, just gimme a call alright". Lol.

Haikal, satisfied? I've promoted you alr Imbachu. (-: Oh yea guys, i'll be updating abt Ryan's chalet along with the FOC mass outing tmrw yea. I'll post pictures for grabs.

OkAiZz PeEpZX, I hAfTa SiGnZ OuTZ AlReaDY WorZZxX.
TAke CareXX yeAX. DUnCh MissXX MieX OkiEx. ^.^
~~~~SpAinzzz GhUrLzzz OutTtTtTzzzz~~~~

HAHAHA, kal, i'm a twit just like you.

NP's FOC camp was a BLAST. I said Millenia's the sex right? NP's more than just sex, swear. Though i had the first-day-at-camp blues, the Sigma Phians took them all away. The experience i gained was truly refreshing. From the damn hyped up GLS to the obviously EPIC us. Hahaha. On the last day, the guys, too, shed some tears. That was how tight we all were. I reckon that they are one helluva wrangle-gangle, loutish bunch. And that's the reason why i'm having camp withdrawal syndrome. Sucks.


MY SIGMA SPARTANS :D
Glory glory Sigma Grooveeeee~
Chut chut chut chut!

Despite their uproarious upbringing, they've given me the best experience ever. From Izzam's daily dose of "Silence! I kill you!" to the scandal of Wei lin and Xue Yi to Wendy's chut chut chut chut to Dick's lame horny dicky jokes to Abel's acrobatic acts. Hahaha, they're awesome. On the last day of camp, it's a norm to see tear-filled eyes' guys. What more girls. HAHA.

And oh, Sigma won the best POWER HOUSE CHEER. Like duh, expected. Cheh~(Sth Iftiqal got me stuck to during camp. Tskk. Lol.)

There was the EMO HOUSE award : ZETA PI.

There was the MOST BONDED HOUSE award : Kappa Tau.

There was the MOST ENTHU HOUSE award : Delta Chi.

But c'mon, in order to win the best POWER HOUSE CHEER, the house has to be bonded and enthu at the same time. Emo is just out of the question la. HAHA.

Listening to the recording really brought back all the nostalgic feeling. Cheh~. Hahaha.

Sigma lepak lepak! Ole ole ah ah! Sigma lepak lepak! Lepak lepak!

Mm-mm i want to linger here
Mm-mm a little longer here
Mm-mm a little longer here with you

Mm-mm it's such a perfect night
It doesn't seem quite right
This is my last night here with you

Mm-mm and come September
We'll all remember
Our lasting friendship true and strong

Mm-mm and as the years go by
Remember this and sigh
This is goodnight and not goodbye.

- The song the DHs sang that got us all maudlin. Lol.