shy/syaq
14-11
Ngee Ann Poly/ Early Childhood Ed
granizo-syaque@hotmail.com

i tink dere is seriously sometin wrong wid my oestrogen level
or mayb da screw up dere needs some tightening
hahaha
teachers' day
didnt get to do aces day
damn..coz i was in a dancing mood
but nvm
afta dat got ready
n i stil wasnt nervous
while da rest are lyk freakin out alredy..i stil can laff alone
hahahaha
told u...
den..it was tym!
jengjengjeng
it was pretty okay..i calmed down..but i panicked wen da amp didnt werk..
yesh..AGAIN..same thing happened during prelim round..
miswan came..he panicked too..
den we both were lyk fuck fuck fuck
miswan the behind the scene hero! :)
a miracle happened and tadaaa!
so da curtains were drawn
we performed
da behind da stage crew were so supportive and all
i was juz happy we finished
but da bad news is we didnt make it to da next round
but hey
a learning experience
atika cried coz my grp didnt make it
it touched me n i cried too
den asheem was lyk consoling me..tellin me dats its okay n all
padahal aku tkde pape seh
but atika and siti's group made it!!!
happy for them
though masturah was eliminated
we stil tink shes a very very very good dancer
yes mas!
so yah..was supposed to hav bahas juz now but only left wid me,att and spiderlina so we sat down and did nothing
waited for asheem and zy to return my guitar and we headed for pp
ate
was supposed to meet alif but he said da guard shooed them off..
haha
in literature way
"if fate brings us together,we'll meet someday."
ryte alif?
kk..im hyper..but wad can i do...
so yups..
dats abt it..
hahahahaha =)

fucked up world.it has always been my fault.im always da one creating troubles and causing problems to evryone.im juz a nuisance to the world.it wld hav been betta if i didnt exist.or mayb if i werent born.yah.wun da world b a much more fun and peaceful place to live in?dun waste ur tears on me gal.yes u.im not worth ur tears.im sorry if i made u feel invisible.it's all me.why do i always make ppl's lives miserable.to people readin it.i may sound dramatic and all.but try bein in my shoes.where things juz get complicated.problems afta problems.i make look happy and jumpy outside.but inside im juz hanging on to a string dat wil sooner or later break.if only i could juz end my lyfe silently.no one sees.no one noes.no one hears.no one needs me.i hav juz as much problems at home.a part of the family i may b but juz an outsider to my eyes.ONCE AGAIN.my fault.see how much of a nuisance i am?dun be shocked if u happen to see my face on one of da pages of strait times.mayb da day afta tmrw.next week.next next week.ha ha ha.
wtf am i sayin.ooorrr.i mite juz turn crazy!wait.i alredy am.haha.woodbridge,here i come!
im done here.and probably wun come back.keyword: probably.or mayb i wil come back.

yesterday was a pretty fun day =)

'explored' bus 31 wid siti.we were late but we managed to get ard 20 mins worth of sleep.u mite tink dat it's only 20 mins but hey.evry min counts.
furz period was p.e.instructions given by balbinder was to form groups of 5 n practise da aces day moves.but sumhow da class bonded and did it together wen he went down.i tink he was kinda shocked too.hahaha.2b juz rawks my werld! :)
afta dat had c.e.we played traditional games.had a lot of laffs,rolls and jumps.
went back to class.did maths.we used da whole two periods to do 3 maths quizzes.maths quizzes hav always been fun.she gave da last 10 mins to do wadeva we want.
recess.blabla
english was more of lyk literature.coz we were interpreting da poems in da txbk.
we were doing 'the snake'
den ms nah said dat sumtyms we hav to understand the real meaning. (wid a perverse smile)
and so.me and sarah went interpreting it.we got da picture.coz dere were blackholes and water trough and cracks.we thot it was meant to b a sick poem or if u want to call it 'the lyfe of a sperm'?
get it now?snake.sperm?nvm. ;)
as she went thru.me n sarah got confused.so we asked if da poem was meant to b sick.ms nah said 'NO!wah.da gals are tinkin too far!' and da whole class juz turn to look at us.hahaha.it's not our fault.ms nah is known as a pervertic woman.sarah got all excited.hahaha
got some sleep during english.she didnt mind.my whole row had their heads on the table.
hml.we are doin a debate on why studying in a local university is betta than studying overseas.my grp is to oppose dat statement.we are up against siti's grp.da class was so kecoh as usual.
ringg.went up to music rm.had choir.lardidar.did a few carols.nyce ones.da melody is stil stuck in my head.and me,being an alto i feel proud to say dat we are da only section wid beautiful solos.our solo is juz nyce and jazzy.and according to mr kwei.we hav to sing it in a seductive way.hahaha =)
went to jam fer awhile afta dat.we did it!we improved i muz say.im playin da intro!haha.i was scared.literally scared coz i fret dat i wun pull it off.evryone was depending on me.and i cant stand pressure.but afta much encouraging frm da guys.eureka!haha.a productive session.but poor zy lost his wallet.coz mr sniper (lionel) was playin wid da microphone stand.we searched da whole room.evry possible spot but it wasnt dere.some ppl muz hav seen it wen we got out of da room.the world's black.
went home.got ready for tuition.dad sent.it was okay.i cldnt pay much attention.restless.i was counting down da minutes left to go home.hahah.met nurul huda.some new gal.she was an ex-tksian.not exactly.she changed school in sec one.her form tcher was miss lim ah ber.hahaha.
okie dokie.dat was ydae.
today.meeting sarah,lemuel and kenneth to do dnt project in school.im goin out wid siti lata to get my black shirt for performance.whoopiedoopie im gonna b late.
adios amigos!

ps: happie berfday trisha and tina!

wooowwweeeeee
went to school wid sod in a cab from tampines
coz i had to bring amp to school
lalala
end of school
had rehearsal
it's good to hav GREAT frens by ur side
dat are willing to help u in any situation
namely syariff and nasrul who actualli went all da way to katong to get my guitar for me
n again returning it for me tmrw
thank you a lot a lot =)
rehearsal sucked
it juz ruined evryone's mood
we were sitting on da steps by da staff room digesting wad da tchers said
waited for siti to finish da website thingy
shes an independent woman man! ;)
had a commotion abt da interclass soccer tmrw
da tchers want it postponed coz friday is a cca day
da guys dun seem to agree to it
we were walkin out of school
den dis old man or da dude wid da white hair started
saying"apa khabar...da lamer tak jumpe ehh...apa khabar minah"
den we replied "baikk"
den he said "alhamdulillah"
me n sod laffed lyk shit
it only reminded us of our dearest APK(atikah)
hahaha
da next thing we were at kfc
ate.laffed.hahaha
walked ard.played wid da escalator!n travelators!
hahahaha
blablabla
me n sod went crazy at da mrt station n thot of goin "adventurous"
but we realised it was too late
so we headed home instead
came home
tadaaa!
i wanted to end dis entry wid a quote but i cldnt find a suitable one so nvm
just live lyfe to da fullest! =))

got back da results.it went fine.finer than wad i expected it to b :)
failed maths.as predicted.but i targeted lyk ard 12.5 but i got a 20 instead.
hahahaha.im quite happy wid it.although da main point here is dat i failed.
passed da rest. =)
apparently dis lyfe of mine has sucked n rocked.sumtin is wrong wid my oestrogen.
hahahaha
at tyms i feel suicidal but at tyms i laff n smile to myself
hmmm
lalalalalalalala
dere i go again.smiling to da screen alone lyk sum freak.
tinkin of how i fell yesterday infront of da toilet n infront of my dad
n how i communicated wid sod in da toilet.
hahahahaha
okay enuff is enuff
im changing my blogskin
someone complained dat it's too pink
hahahah
ive got art to do,dnt to finish up n anoder book to read
=)


-bookworm at work-

maths was freaking hard!!!
u see dat word?yesh.it's head-scratching tough.
i hope more than half of the sec 2 population will fail.
wakakaka =)
vincent tan's fault if we do!
studyin for geog now.da last test!
asked someone a ques.i was prolly disappointed by da answer?
but.i shall juz be happy for dat person.
f-language is funfun
u fu shud fud try fy it fit
u fu wil fil get fet a fa dic fic ted fed
get fet it fit? :)

cikgu nadira confirm dunno how to set HML paper
it was okay for me
hahahahahaha
laffed to myself during test
yes.AGAIN
history
i didnt manage to elaborate all da points in da 30 mins
ms nah kept tapping my table
signalling me to look at da tym
recess
*look here look dere smile here smile dere*
nvm if u dun understand =)
maths was funn
trigo ratio thingy
den IT
i got lost wid da new program
but it seems inntteerreessttinngggg
got to noe sum things
i dun actualli noe how to react to it
geog.maths wb period.
stubbings came
shes good
home home home
cori updated me wid his lyfe
here i am
gonna study for maths n lit
bein a nerd =)

science was..hahahahaha..
wad i studied came out so it was okay i guess?
i tink im crazy
ive been smiling to myself
moments of laffter wid evryone jus flash thru my mind
hahahahahaha
im jus smiling away
so if u see me smiling alone just pretend u didnt see me =)
im gonna miss sec 2 lyfe
im gonna miss da laffs i had wid dem
bein a doofus in public
da old good tyms
im gonna miss all of them
bits of memories we had together
hahahahahahahah
2 years passed fast :))


deres HML n history tmrw.n i owe someone a testy
hahahahahahahaha
sorie i jus felt lyk laffing =)

madrasah went okay.i didnt talk much.infact i haven been talkin much.mardiana is now wid her NEW gang.im all to myself now.actualli i dun mind.she is always boasting abt her bf.dis guy n dat guy.which one to meet afta madrasah.ahahahaha.im not poking my nose into her business animore.came home.watched repeat telecast of NDP parade coz i didnt manage to catch it last tuesday was it?yeps.
my sister's getting ready for her wedding.preparing da dulangs.decorating da gifts.hahahah.
bet she cant wait. =)
my sis bought for me n my 2nd sis gowns to wear during her dinner.n they are veri prettyful.



hav a gd look.haha.it's grey in colour.n has da half jacket thingy.u noe wad im referrin to. =)

yesterday was a realli dreadful day for me.went to school wid a flu n it rained on my way out.jus great for a start huh.met princess SOD at bdok.slept in da bus.reached school.had assembly in class.had pe.den ce.att(APK) made me realised dat guys are realli bastards.blabla.had maths.recess.sod was fasting so we lepak-ed bhind da library.she was nervous abt her eng presentatn.dat was wen my headache started.i felt lyk puking.afta recess.eng.it was tym for sarah and siti to present.sarah was good.at least better than trisha.but she got a 32.siti was also good. =)
i cldnt tahan da headache.so sorry to those presenting coz i didnt pay attention thruout da 2 eng periods.hml was gerek.as per normal la.my condition had worsen by den.my eyes were all watery.my head felt superr heavy.but i survived thru da coldness of da trecherous aircon.n cikgu ismail does look lyk father yokies if u didnt notice.u noe da malaysian kids cartoon 'yokies'.n nini(LOL) is sister yokies n izhaq is brother yokies.dere u hav it.da YOKIES family :)
afta skool.we didnt feel lyk goin back.so we walked ard da school.hanged out for awhile bhind our block.da wind was realli windy.jus da perfect weather wen u r sick.aahhh.
waited at da canteen for sod n hilly(DIY) to come down frm da hall.me sarah jannah(GTG) were slacking in da canteen.did i mention i had 3 masseuse wid me yesterday.dey actualli helped to massage my head.they were sod,gtg n sarah.thanks dearies! =)
went back home wid sod,sarah,gtg n diy.den our bus was invaded wid kecoh sec 1 boys.n ashraf jus had to be dere.ashraf is jus an irritating and rude sec 1 guy.i cldnt b bothered wid him ydae in da bus.i was sick.wadeva he said goes into one ear n comes out frm da otha ear.den dey were all askin if my leg was okay or not.all of dem knew.cikgu practically told evry single malay class of his including 2f.dey recognised me as da gal wid da injured leg.ahaks.popular for once.
slept my way thru da aftanoon.used da com for awhile.den slept again.da headache was jus unbearable.

today.woke up.studied science.here i am.hav religious class later.n den at nyte too.exams in 2 days tym.i tink im prepared for science.sumhow i guess.hmm.i shall get goin n clean my room b4 my mum comes back n start nagging.hav a nyce weekend ;)

ps: happie berfday hazwan!
pps: thanks fiza for bringing home my pe tee!

woke up at 530.realised i was goin to b late.got ready.prayed subuh.left da hse ard 605.saw nasrul waiting.met siti on da train.syariff took da train frm bedok.evryone was prolly confused why da four of us were wearing slippers to school.dis makcik even jeling-ed at me.but all i did was wear slippers.haha.stopped at pl.took bus until mobil.it was dere wen we bandaged our leg n all.haha.went to school.evryone was staring.n kept asking why.oh ya.trisha looked so chio today wid her fringe down.n so did atikah.she was lyk glowing. =)
back to da topic.went down for assembly.mrs k saw n she laffed.hahah.she thought it was cute.evryone started asking why,what,where,how.we had to repeat da same old story tym n tym again.for those who understand.good.but those who didnt.kirim salam sudah.
afta school.studied at marine parade library.wid da same ppl.me,ash,zy,hilly n sod.got bored of books.walked to pp.bought bubble tea.headed to pl.in da bus.no need to explain.took mrt.home.i wanna eeaatt. =)

NSSJS [100805;1315h]
ps: sounds weird but melson lyks my father's name.hahaha

was woken up dis morning by syariff's msg.freakin 630 in da morn.den i slept back.at 754 am sharp both da guys msged me.guys means syariff n nasrul.took all my books n started out on my homework which was half done.finished it.got ready.decided to go hav breakfast wid family but i realised i wld b late if i did dat coz it was alredy 1135 n im meeting dem at 12.spent da 25 mins walking ard tm.went back to cheers(our supposedly meeting plc) at ard 1205 but dey were stil not dere.i waited lyk some doofus.at last ard 1230 i saw both of dem.walk relek oni.lyk veri early.off we went to meet jannah at pasir ris.headed to downtown bowl.we played one game n at da same tym study during intervals. =) nasrul paid for da games.but i felt bad so i shared da cost.took bus to al-istighfar.prayed.jus as soon as i wanted to stand up.siti jus had to say sumtin.ahahaha.n dere i was laffing on da carpet.in da mosque!hehe.went back to downtown to fill our stomachs.ate at macs.studied afta dat.jannah went home.i forgot to include dat dear princess siti met us at da bowling alley.so da four of us walked to da beach.fyi, four means me siti nasrul syariff.we were studying.da wind was nyce though a lil hot.
highlight of da day!
we got chased by crazee dogs!
not oni one but 3
hahahahahaha.we ran lintang pukang.our last option was da sea.da dogs were creating so much chaos man.we came up wid a conclusion dat dey were sumhow hungry.coz we were eating while studying.ahhaha.we were wet.really wet!bloody dogs.bloody legs too.nasrul's feet was bleeding.a hell lot.da cuts were deep.deres one deep one on my feet.basically da four of us went home wid a cut in our feet.ahaha.balik sumer jalan terincut-incut.so we decided to wear slippers to school tmrw.set ah! :)
im stil laffing at da fact dat we got chased.it's jus too unbelievable.lyk sum little kid's story.but noo.hahah.

ps: nasrul saw sumtin digusting. ;)

jus came back frm da NDP celebration at tamp.wid siti,jannah,hidayah(jannah's sis),nasrul n syariff.it was realli fun.wid da drums n all.ahaha.prayed asar n mahgrib at ghufran.back n forth to our seats.wee.
ill leave da conclusion of the day wid dis sentence:
"i feel guilty and in dilemma but im stil smiling away."

ps: all da thanks to syariff's family! =)

happie 40th national birthday singapore!

whoopies!no school for 2 days.madness man.haha.dis shld b a short one.im meeting siti lata to go to da carnival at tamp.nas n syariff are alredy dere.jannah's goin wid her cousins.waiting for my mum to come back n giv me money. =)
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PPL!enjoy da break!

i had fun today.frm school to outside school! =)

went to school.normal assembly.den split to our various competitions.da tee-shirt design was fun.ahahas.we got paint evrywhere!we were practically painting ppl instead of da tshirt itself.weee.n not to forget.nasrul n syariff had colourful hair.it was nyce.but dey looked lyk red indians according to siti.but for me.i thought dey looked lyk clowns. =P
da NDP concert was okay.we got to sit at da gallery!woohoo! x) da guys were veri enthu.dancing n singing.haha.till da gals joined.it was hevoc in da gallery.but noone was in da celebration mood.afta dat.went out wid asheem,zhiyi n lionel.took 33 wid jannah,siti n hilma.siti was goin out wid her frens until she found out she got ditched!haha.jus bcos she was late.lionel went off to play lan.hes weird man.we watched 'wedding crashers'.it was realli funny.n not to forget.NC-16.ahahs.me n siti went up to dis guy n asked if he cld buy for us da tix.he agreed.we've gotta take da risk at tyms. ;)
afta da movie.met hilma walkin alone.she was frm a 'date'.wow.ahah.so she joined us.
afta dat.we headed for da sand n sun.got to noe dat da rest were also dere wen we reached.went to "our" rock.ahas.more secrets were out :)
den headed home.on 31.me n siti were so kecoh.i tink da makcik bside us was irritated.we cldnt stop laffing.hahaha.a fun day indeed!

today was plainly boring.woke up.lazed ard in bed.bathed and all.watched gigli again.gigli rhymes wid realli.so it's pronounced as gili.hahaha.jennifer lopez is jus sooo hot.den i slept.awhile.den here i am.using da comp.finished my ipw report (discovery).woohoo!! =)
went to dis blog.da freaking person is blardy anti-muslims.wtf sia.criticise not only malays but muslims too. http://thesecondholocaust.blogspot.com i bet dat person has nth betta to do than to create enemies.i pity these kind of low-lyfers.oh wait.i dun even tink he/she is worth my pity.
ndp celebration tmrw.i wanted to wear red.semangat ndp konon ah.but i tink ill look lyk a watermelon.red shirt,green skirt n white shoes.haha.weird combi man.so ill jus stick to pe shirt.im hungry.finding food to eat :)

my days hav been great bcosz of my dearest frens. =)
had choir jus now.it was a "talk cock session" wid mr toh.it was fun apart frm all those boring practices.we were told to find a partner.as usual.me n yien.we were separated into A n B.A was asked to talk as per normal.while B had to observed A's diaphragm(sp?).since it was me n yien.we had a diff way of interpreting da word observe.hahaha.A had to do da same as B.it was dumb la.den we had bonding tym n all.da last 40 mins or less were spent on carols.den waited for zhiyi,sod n hilly.me,asheem,cheryl n da 3 of dem went to pp.skipped madrasah.cheryl left.i wanted to study.but we sumhow ended up at da beach.
*secrets behind 5 walls* =)
jeng jeng jeng.hahahah
we did stoopid stuffs wid bottles.hehe.
reached home.felt rajin (hardworking in malay) so i cleaned da house.put evrything in place.hazlyn msged me sayin dere wil b no tuition tmrw.yayness.mdm mariana wants to celebrate her anniversary n is in a holiday mood.ahahs. =)


smiling away :)
- OMG, member of TCE -

happie berfday papa!love ya lots!

ive got to tell da whole werld this!
sarah had a bf wen she was primary one!
cute ryte?hahah
jus now on da way back had da three walls talk..all da secrets were out..even da funny ones..hahahahah..
did all i could..wasnt forcing..
a new oath added to my list:

• stop tryin to help ppl wid their problems..coz sumtymes i 'helped' too much til it creates stories dat are bound to be plainly stoopid..

oh ya..BD got thru to da next round!and so did siti's grp and atikah(probation)

dats all i wanna say. =)